What is it about the human condition that we can’t be satisfied knowing what will happen without knowing how it will happen also? I ask this question because I realized this is exactly how I felt Thursday night. After receiving the news about Bennett’s tumor not shrinking and hearing the doctor tell us she did not think she could cure him, I immediately began to ask The Lord, “What now?”
I continued to hear him say all night long, “I will heal Bennett.” And you know what my response was? “But, God…How!?”
Can you believe that!? I just heard God promise to heal my son and my response was to question His plan. I didn’t say “thank you,” and I didn’t find comfort in God telling me what He was going to do. In that moment I finally understood the fear that the old kings of Israel and Judah felt time and time again.
You see, if you go read through the Old Testament you will read story after story of the kings of Israel and Judah under attack. Most of the time, God would send a prophet to tell the kings not to fear and trust God to give them victory over their enemy. And in return, most of the time the kings would question God’s plan and try to come up with their own.
I used to read these stories and look down upon their lack of faith. But now, I understand their fear so much more. When it’s a life or death situation…it’s hard to trust God when all you know is the what. In those moments…you really want to know the how as well. And this is where I was Thursday night. I was hearing the promise of God but afraid of His process. I needed to know the plan to make sure I was ok with it.
It was in the midst of this revelation the next day that I stopped moping around the room and remembered that God’s word tells me that strength does not come from knowledge. It comes from trusting in The Lord.
“…but those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength; they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31)
So in a moment of surrender, I asked God, “Ok…if you’re going to do this, then what do you want me to do?” God immediately reminded me of the verse where Jesus responds to a group of deflated disciples whose attempts to heal a young boy failed. “This kind can only come out with prayer and fasting,” He said.
And you know what, He’s right. And He’s been saying this all along too.
One of those Old Testament stories of Israel under attack was actually one the Lord brought us to early on in this journey. In 2 Chronicles 20:1-30, you’ll find the story of God telling the Israelites to get into position to fight their enemy but that all they would have to do is stand, watch God fight and then worship Him. We feel strongly that this is what God is wanting us to do as well. We need to get in a position to watch Him and worship Him. And you know what that sounds like to me?
Praying. Lots and lots of praying. This thing will only come out through prayer and fasting as an act of worship, thanking God for delivering Bennett.
So we are inviting you to pray even more. And to help, we have set up a prayer calendar for us all on www.24-7prayer.us. You can click here to view the February calendar. Scroll to the bottom of the page and you will see multiple different prayer groups you can join for each day. Here is a picture of the page where I have highlighted the links for the #Pray4BabyBennett group.
Click on the link to pray for Bennett and then sign up for at least one 15 minute slot to pray for Bennett. You can take as many as you want and feel free to invite others to it. Our goal is to have constant 24/7 prayer going for Bennett through the rest of the month. If you are a night owl, consider taking some of the late night shifts and pray specifically that he sleeps well and gets rest to heal. We also want to encourage you to consider fasting as well. You can either fast one thing all day or fast the meal that is closest to your time slot.
Thank you for joining us and letting us lead you to pray for Bennett. We are so blessed to have God rally this kind of army to our side. Let’s suit up for battle and get ready to watch God move!