Trusting God And Praying More

What is it about the human condition that we can’t be satisfied knowing what will happen without knowing how it will happen also? I ask this question because I realized this is exactly how I felt Thursday night. After receiving the news about Bennett’s tumor not shrinking and hearing the doctor tell us she did not think she could cure him, I immediately began to ask The Lord, “What now?”

I continued to hear him say all night long, “I will heal Bennett.” And you know what my response was? “But, God…How!?”

Can you believe that!? I just heard God promise to heal my son and my response was to question His plan. I didn’t say “thank you,” and I didn’t find comfort in God telling me what He was going to do. In that moment I finally understood the fear that the old kings of Israel and Judah felt time and time again.

You see, if you go read through the Old Testament you will read story after story of the kings of Israel and Judah under attack. Most of the time, God would send a prophet to tell the kings not to fear and trust God to give them victory over their enemy. And in return, most of the time the kings would question God’s plan and try to come up with their own.

I used to read these stories and look down upon their lack of faith. But now, I understand their fear so much more. When it’s a life or death situation…it’s hard to trust God when all you know is the what. In those moments…you really want to know the how as well. And this is where I was Thursday night. I was hearing the promise of God but afraid of His process. I needed to know the plan to make sure I was ok with it.

It was in the midst of this revelation the next day that I stopped moping around the room and remembered that God’s word tells me that strength does not come from knowledge. It comes from trusting in The Lord.

“…but those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength; they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31)

So in a moment of surrender, I asked God, “Ok…if you’re going to do this, then what do you want me to do?” God immediately reminded me of the verse where Jesus responds to a group of deflated disciples whose attempts to heal a young boy failed. “This kind can only come out with prayer and fasting,” He said.

And you know what, He’s right. And He’s been saying this all along too.

One of those Old Testament stories of Israel under attack was actually one the Lord brought us to early on in this journey. In 2 Chronicles 20:1-30, you’ll find the story of God telling the Israelites to get into position to fight their enemy but that all they would have to do is stand, watch God fight and then worship Him. We feel strongly that this is what God is wanting us to do as well. We need to get in a position to watch Him and worship Him. And you know what that sounds like to me?

Praying. Lots and lots of praying. This thing will only come out through prayer and fasting as an act of worship, thanking God for delivering Bennett.

So we are inviting you to pray even more. And to help, we have set up a prayer calendar for us all on You can click here to view the February calendar. Scroll to the bottom of the page and you will see multiple different prayer groups you can join for each day. Here is a picture of the page where I have highlighted the links for the #Pray4BabyBennett group.

Click on the link to pray for Bennett and then sign up for at least one 15 minute slot to pray for Bennett. You can take as many as you want and feel free to invite others to it. Our goal is to have constant 24/7 prayer going for Bennett through the rest of the month. If you are a night owl, consider taking some of the late night shifts and pray specifically that he sleeps well and gets rest to heal. We also want to encourage you to consider fasting as well. You can either fast one thing all day or fast the meal that is closest to your time slot.

Thank you for joining us and letting us lead you to pray for Bennett. We are so blessed to have God rally this kind of army to our side. Let’s suit up for battle and get ready to watch God move!


  1. As I drove to church this morning I thought over and over about your words this morning Megan about knowing God will heal Benett but we want to know how and when. As I drove, the song on the radio was Everlasting God, and as the refrain repeated I found myself thinking that’s exactly right!!! “Strength will rise as we wait upon The Lord”! My prayer today is as we wait that you and Ben and Bennett just enjoy the day and laugh and play and love!!! My prayers always never cease that god will give Bennett comfort and rest as we wait upon The Lord!!!!! Always here if you need anything!!! XOXO

    1. The Lord is your Shepard,Yes though You Walk through of the Valley of the Shadow of Death, you will not fear for GOD Almighty is with you (May the Lord gives you the revelation of the Shadow of Death…. it is only a shadow…God your Shepard is walking with you… Keep walking stedfast and know that we all have to walk through this valley but God promise said that he is with us … No matter what) . May Jehovah Shalom gives you peace and Jehovah Roi restores you and heals you…in Jesus Name I prayed.

  2. I am so honored and blessed to offer up my prayers for Bennett. As I was praying this morning, this verse was laid on my heart. “We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;” Corinthians 4:8,9.
    Love to you all.

  3. Thank you for leading us in prayer, praise and fasting. As I read this post, I was reminded of Abraham taking his son to sacrifice to the Lord. Right up to the point of raising the knife, Abraham trusted God’s plan, not knowing the how. At the very last moment, God answered in an unexpected way. We will stand with you and pray, waiting for God’s answer, and will praise Him.

  4. Ben and Megan — Suiting up with you and putting on the Armour of our King and ready for BATTLE!! Signing up for PRAYER SLOTS, but don’t see any slots to sign up for “Fasting” specifically — if we choose to Fast for a day or more, how do we sign up for that? Either way, we’ll have Bennett covered with Prayer!! Love and Blessings to you all – and Praying, “by His stripes we are HEALED!!”

  5. Continuing to pray for Bennett’s healing and for God’s grace and mercy to embrace your family. May you find strength in His love and the love of those around you!

  6. Although I don’t know you, I pray that you will be able to rest in the Lord each day. That’s difficult when the “experts” don’t know what to do. Although we can’t always see how God is working, we can trust that He is. As you lay your head down each night, I pray for peaceful rest for you and for Bennett. During the day, I pray you will not allow Satan any ground in your thinking. God bless you as you walk this journey.

  7. Ben,Megan, and Bennett,

    MeMama , Uncle Carter , and I have chosen to commit to prayer from 8 to 9 AM. But we all pray almost all day , and when we awaken for any reason at night.
    You are always in our thoughts and prayers.
    We love you so much
    Aunt Ann

  8. Megan, Ben and Family-we continue to war with you for your precious little boy! We are believing Gods word to you and and praying daily for Bennett and for your family. Thank you for allowing us to be apart of your journey-we are truly honoured to stand on guard, surrounding you with love, Gods Good and Powerful Word and worship!
    Blessings to you all! Hugs to baby Bennett!
    The Boulter Family
    Prince Edward Island-Canada

  9. Megan, God woke me yesterday morning at 5 a.m. to pray for Bennett. As I prayed he said tell you RUN THE RACE! He said it would be conformation in your spirit!
    I feel the tumor not shrinking is his way to show his greatness to many unbelievers now! As you and many of us pray, God is working his plan to remove the tumor miraculously. It will be disappear overnight! Bennett’s illness has caused you to witness to so many how to be strong in Christ and never give up! You have inspired so many, you are truly running the race! We at The Crossingplace Fellowship in Franklin are praying for Bennett also! Love in Christ, Gwen Saucier

    1. Ben and Megan, it is amazing the clarity and insight that The Lord is giving to both of you as you “walk this road”. The fact that you take those moments and turn them into “teachable moments” for the thousands praying for and following Bennett’s progress shows us all what FAITH and service trully looks like. Ben your analogy about the kings of Israel is spot on. I am humbled and count it a privilege to be able to “link arms” with you in lifting Bennett up and praising our Savior and Father and watching the Glory of God shine brightly!
      Jodi Barras

  10. Dear Ben and Megan,
    We are praying for your family and for adorable Bennett to be fully healed. We prayed for you in our bible study today at WHPC, too. You are so strong, and I was amazed to read what you each have written about your faith and Bennett. Our family has joined your army of prayer warriors and will be praying daily for you all. May God give you faith, strength, comfort and patience, and may God work miracles in your lives by healing your precious son Bennett.

  11. I want to say something a little different. I am praying for you, Bennett and the rest of your family. I know God WILL heal Bennett it may be here on earth or when he is with our Lord. Gods will, we all know he has a reason for every thing that takes place.
    I want you to know you and Bennett are touching so many lives. Bet you have not even thought about what a witness you both are by sharing your faith and your journey. It is such an out pouring of love from you to us and us to you. You will never know the impact your words and faith are having on so many people. I am not good with words,but know, YOU are blessing so many. God has you in his arms. He also has Bennett, he is using you all to his glory.
    Your beautiful baby boy is more special than you realize. Please cont you strong faith and as you know God has it all under control.
    Love and many many prayers going up for you and your family. May God bless you many many times over. Strength and peace be with you.

  12. Ben (and Megan),
    Though I have signed up for certain “slots”, with my two Girls at home, doctors appointments ourselves, and our schedules being so scattered each day, I want you to know and rest assured that honestly, about every hour, Bennett is more than covered with Prayer.

    I have also fasted these past two days, whole days and will keep this up every week for at least two full days, along with covering him with personally and through
    strong Prayer Requests at Church.


  13. I grieve for you imagining the anguish you feel right now, but I am so encouraged by your faith so beautifully displayed. May it lead many to a saving knowledge of the one true Go–the One who gives strength to those who trust in Him. And, may it lead many more to depeen their trust and become unshakable in this generation for such a time as this. Praying fervently for you and Bennett! Heal, Lord! We can’t wait to see how you will do it!

    The Moran family

  14. Well God Woke me at 3 praying for Bennett’s healing! I screamed inside for ya’ll!! Then I though how Exciting when you will post the tumor is dissolving! I also want to correct my last comment a few days ago when I said Bennett’s illness! IT IS NOT Bennett’s illness, it belongs to the devil! God didn’t give it so it has to go!!
    Praying Bennett, you and Ben a blessed uplifting day!! Also for God to bless all your family!

  15. Praying and trusting that God will be GLORIFIED through all of this. I have a special place in my heart for little boys (being the mom of 4 of my own) and my heart aches for little Bennett. As I prayed over him this morning, I was reminded once again that God has promised to supply all of our needs, according to His heavenly riches. Praying for you to have an overwhelming sense of peace and awareness of God’s provision for your family.

  16. Baby Bennett has reached far and wide. I learned of his illness from family members in LA. My home is in PA. He will be added to the prayer list in my church here. God hears all prayers and as they are lifted up to him as one voice, may He in His mercy hear us and grant our wishes for a miracle. May each prayer be as chemo to the tumor and let these prayers reduce the tumor until it is gone completely. My prayers are with mommy and daddy, too. May God give you peace.

  17. Praying for Bennett and your family
    2 Cor. 1:10-11
    For it is He who rescued and saved us from such a perilous death; and He will still rescue and save us; in and on Him we have set our hope that He will again deliver us from danger and destruction and draw us it himself.
    While you also cooperate by your prayers for us (helping and laboring together with us). Thus the lips of many persons turned toward God will eventually give thanks on our behalf for the grace (the blessing of deliverance) granted us at the request of the many who have prayed.
    Ps. 42:8
    In the night his song shall be with me, even a prayer unto the God of my life. (Prayer is song to God!)

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