I can’t even tell you how many tears I have cried in the last few days…I could’ve probably filled the ocean with them all. Some of the tears were pure sadness of what we are facing, some were of joy that I have the privilege of being this little guy’s mama and get to carry him through this, some were of loneliness to come into my quiet home yesterday knowing we weren’t all here, some were of gratitude that I got to hold my other babies, some were of pain that I had to hear Davis cry and ask for Bennett’s liver to be better so our family could be back together again, some were of desperation for God to just heal Bennett immediately. No lie…filled an ocean.
But as I’m writing this right now, the one thing I feel is peace. Don’t get me wrong, the sadness, fear, anger and confusion creep in. But I’m choosing to not swim in it until it takes me under. Lord, I don’t even want to wade around in that destruction. Instead, I’m choosing to believe in a God who loves me and loves my family, loves my baby.
And I believe that Bennett will be healed. Oh, I wish it were today and we could all come home and have a big family hug (we do those hugs a lot around here with the kids!). But God has said, “Not yet.”
And another thing He has said is, “Pray like you’ve never prayed before.” I have heard it, Ben has heard it, other family members have heard it. We need nothing short of a miracle to save his little life.
So this is where the title of this post comes in…we are calling you to pray with us this Saturday at 8pm (central time). Get some friends together and pray for our Bennett.
When I think of what it’s like to “pray like you’ve never prayed before,” I can’t help but think of the song Let It Go from the Disney movie Frozen (probably because it’s stuck in my head since it’s just about the only song that Davis and Reide listen to in the car!). But when it comes to that point in the song where she is saying “Let it go,” it’s with enthusiasm and emotion of freedom. That’s how I will pray for Bennett on Saturday. With a heart of believing who God promises to be. With a heart of trusting His perfect plan for Bennett’s life. With a heart of praise. With a heart of desperation. With a heart bare before the Lord…letting it all go. I am not in control. But My God is.
So we would love for you to join us. You can be in the quietness of your home by yourself. Or grab some friends together and join together in prayer. We don’t really care what it looks like or how it’s done. We just believe that there is power when we are in unison all praying for one little 18 month old boy, Bennett Thomas Coleman.
Now if you are like me at all, it’s really nice to have a little “guide” to help in prayer. Often I sit with good intentions to pray for people and then my thoughts get the best of me and before I know it my shopping list is completed in my head. Oops…how did I get on that tangent while trying to pray! So to help you with that if you need it or want it, my amazing husband has created a Prayer Guide (love that pastor in him!).
Use it or don’t. Again, it doesn’t matter. We just encourage you to pray with us.
So set an alarm. This Saturday at 8pm central time. Let’s Let It Go and see how God answers!
Download Prayer Guide HERE.