It’s been three months

On December 21, 2013, we were a healthy family of five. Our kids filled our home with giggles, whining, hugs, sibling fights, wrestling and more. Ben went to work every day at the church and I stayed home with the kids. We had playdates with our friends, sporadic date nights, church on Sundays and were preparing for Christmas. All gifts were bought and wrapped (the first time ever that early!). We were happy and we were healthy.

Right before Christmas

Right before Christmas

Then came December 22, three months ago today.

I took Bennett to the ER because we had been noticing for a few days that his abdomen looked bloated and it was hard when you touched under his ribs. After a handful of scans, the doctor came behind the curtain and said he needed to talk to us…in a private room.

That was the moment I knew it was bad.

He proceeded to tell us that our little seventeen month old boy had a tumor on his liver. And they were very confident it was cancerous.

Never did I imagine that my family would be struck by cancer. Let alone one of my babies.

But it did.

Maybe you’ve experienced a day that changed your life forever too. You were told your child has autism or diabetes. Or you lost someone you loved. Or you moved far from home. Or maybe you lost your job.

Because we live in a broken world, we will all experience sadness and disappointment in some way. We can’t escape it. But what matters most is how we handle it.

Our family could’ve chosen to be pulled under by the pain. To sink instead of swim. To be bitter because of the hand we were dealt.

But we chose to trust our role in God’s story long ago. And now we trust Bennett’s role in God’s story. And we will not simply endure God’s will but rejoice in it “with an inexpressible and glorious joy” (1 Peter 1:8).

So what does it look like now for our family, three months later? Our kids still fill our home with giggles, whining, hugs, sibling fights, wrestling and more. But it’s in Memphis now. I still stay home with them and Ben travels a little further to work every few weeks. And we go to the hospital…a lot.

It’s a new way of life. But we have peace with where we are, even though we miss where we were. We are “sorrowful, yet always rejoicing” (2 Corinthians 6:10).

It is said that springs of sweet, fresh water pool up amid the saltiness of the oceans, that the fairest Alpine flowers bloom in the wildest and most rugged mountain passes, and that the most magnificent psalms arose from the most profound agonies of the soul. May it continue to be! Therefore, amid a multitude of trials, souls who love God will discover reasons for boundless, leaping joy. Even though “deep calls to deep” (Psalm 42:7), the clear cadence of the Lord’s song will be heard. And during the most difficult hour that could ever enter a human life, it will be possible to bless the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. (Streams in the Desert)

This is our most difficult hour. But we will love God all the more. And today we celebrate three months because it’s three more months we’ve had with our baby Bennett!

So how can you rejoice today too with where you are?

20 Comments

  1. We continue to have steadfast faith in God’s wisdom and choices for us all… We will always continue to rejoice with you , pray with you and hope with you…whatever God’s ultimate plan is, none of us can EVER doubt He has shown Himself to all of us through Bennett’s journey and Bennett is and will be truly blest by it all… God bless your strong in faith family… Have a wonderful weekend together. We love you.

  2. Sweet Coleman Family,

    I cannot tell you all how much we love y’all & are praying for y’all!! This post just blessed my soul to the very core. God is shining so brightly through y’all during this time that I think I need my sunglasses!!

  3. Indeed, Ben and Megan, this is the walk of faith. It is faith is action. Romans 8:35 “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution or famine, or nakedness, or peril or sword?” NOTHING separates us from the love of Christ. You are literally free-falling into His arms…trusting Him no matter where He takes you. This is when He is glorified! And, you are doing a gripping job of glorifying Him, which is why we are here. This is the peace that passes understanding, in the midst of trial and tribulation, that He is holding you closely, strengthening you, comforting you, drawing you into His presence, loving you. Thank you for inviting all of us into this journey with you. Much love…

  4. You and your family continue to inspire the rest of us to complain a little less, to look at the glass as 1/2 full, not 1/2 empty, and to love and serve our Lord. Continued thoughts and prayers are with you all. Bennett is one lucky little boy to be part of your family and you all are so blessed by God with you strong faith and will to get through this. Let’s hope and pray that at your six month mark, Bennett will be on his way to health and happiness.

  5. Continuing to pray…thank you so much for being such a sweet reflection of His amazing, sustaining grace! Rejoicing with you for another day to serve Him and walk life with those I love! We love the Coleman family!

  6. I rejoice because HE IS OUR GOD! I rejoice because of the love of the One in our lives! I rejoice because you, sweet girl, continue to bless us as you and yours walk this path. Know you are not alone! Our Father GOD is always there with you, and we continue to pray for His grace!!!

    Love to you all!!!!

  7. I’m rejoicing with you my dear friends. I’m going to be worshipping Jesus extra joyously tomorrow morning with our church. Be blessed sweet Coleman Family!

  8. Megan,
    you are an awesome mom of God’s truth and love..
    your writings are so inspirational. it makes me love your family all that much more.
    I always stayed focus on God, in the mist of turmoil. I learned at Celebrate Recovery that you have to go through the hell in the hallways to get to your peace.
    God is waiting with his arms wide open to help us to give up our free will of stinkin thinkin. Also that HARDSHIP IS MY PATHWAY TO PEACE LIKE NONE OTHER.
    this has gotten me through so many times of hurt and depression.
    I lost most of my family to cancer, so I can really relate to where your mind is right now. God is so amazing! I know through experience that he has never left your side my friend. you are an amazing woman and your strength can only come from one place, and that is GOD!
    love you to pieces, praying everyday for yall!
    love and hugs,
    Juanita Hebert

  9. im praying for you and your family . i pray that God moves in a mighty and powerful way!! jermiah 29:11!! JUST KEEP PRAYING AND SEEK HIM GOD BLESS

  10. Meagan,, again you have touched my heart to hear your strength through all your test! Your testimony will be greater! You are amazing and inspiring and uplifting to me as well as many others out there that are not even battling situations as much as you are! We continue to lift Bennett and all your family till Bennett is completely healed and home! Love to all of you! (You could write a book with your words)

  11. Mondays are always hard. Thank you for your words of encouragement for us. May God turn in around and bring it double back to you. We continue to pray for your family and especially for Bennett. I was happy to hear that you have some help and that you could all be together.

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