Oh friends. I wish this was a post where I could tell you how the scan showed us lots to smile about. How God decided to deliver Bennett from cancer now. But that’s not the case for today (although we are still believing it will happen one day soon).
Instead the scan showed us how the few spots on his lungs turned into more spots than they could even count.
More. Than. They. Could. Even. Count.
This means that the cancer is spreading and growing at a rapid rate in his lungs even though he’s been on chemo every week. It truly gives new meaning to an “aggressive tumor.”
Thankfully the tumor on the liver has stayed the same from the last scan. We will take any little bit of victory that comes our way.
So even though the news continues to be heartbreaking, the Lord provides us comfort. He is speaking to us in the pain.
Just last night I was reading in my devotional and came across a few verses in Psalm 112…
They will have no fear of bad news;
their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord.
Their hearts are secure, they will have no fear;
in the end they will look in triumph on their foes.
You can imagine that the moment I read that, I heard God tell me that there was bad news coming. So it was no surprise to us what we heard from the doctor today. And we are grateful to have a loving God that prepared our hearts for such news.
Yes, we have disappointment. We have sadness. But we have no fear. We continue to trust where God has us.
And we are praying the same for you. That you will not be in fear for Bennett. He is our little blessed one (that’s what his name means).
But I’m sure you’re wondering…Now what? Well, chemo is not working so something needs to change. We talked with the doctor about our options. Unfortunately, there are not many and all of them have pros and cons. I’m not going to go into the details now, but we will share it with you once we decide.
So please pray for God to give us wisdom in this decision. Pray for God to speed up Bennett’s healing, and show His strength to the thousands watching this little man.
Ben shared with me a song that God has had on his heart a lot recently. I’m sure a lot of you have heard it, but here it is…
We are holding on to Jesus in this storm. He is The Great “I Am”. He is the one who created Bennett. He is the one who has a plan for him. And in the end we will stand and look in triumph!