God hears

I wasn’t planning on blogging tonight (I don’t want to bombard you all!), but I just had to share.

My sister-in-law was here all weekend with me and it was such a joy. She served me. She served Bennett. She loved us. And today she got on a plane to head back to her family. I didn’t think I would be that emotional about it, but I was. This journey is just easier with someone next to you.


So to pass the time, I got Bennett in the stroller and walked around the St Jude campus with him…it was the first day since we’ve been here where the temperature was over 60 degrees! And as I walked, I listened to the song Come to Me by Bethel Music. Have you listened to it before? If not, please do right now (CLICK HERE) and follow along with these lyrics. Soak them in.

I am the Lord your God, I go before you now
I stand beside you, I’m all around you
Though you feel I’m far away, I’m closer than your breath
I am with you, more than you know

I am the Lord your peace, no evil will conquer you
Steady now your heart and mind, come into My rest
Oh, let your faith arise, lift up your weary head
I am with you wherever you go

Come to Me, I’m all you need.
Come to Me, I’m everything
Come to Me, I’m all you need.
Come to Me, I’m your everything

I am your anchor, in the wind and the waves
I am your steadfast, so don’t be afraid
Though your heart and flesh may fail you, I’m your faithful strength
I am with you wherever you go

Don’t look to the right or to the left but keep your eyes on Me
You will not be shaken, you will not be moved
I am the hand to hold, I am the truth, I am the way
Just come to Me, come to Me, cause I’m all that you need

Just imagine me watching the sun set as I walked around and sang this song (I’m sure I sounded awful as people walked by me singing but I couldn’t tell because the headphones were in!). In my lonliness, God said He is closer than my breath. He is all that I need. He spoke to me through this song.

The beauty of this is that God didn’t stop there. He heard me. And He continued to answer.

As I walked, I received a phone call from a woman I have never met. A mentor mom at St Jude that I’m going to meet tomorrow. God says, “Megan, you are not alone.”

I walked some more and another call came in from a friend I’ve met here just to check in on me. God says, “Megan, you are not alone.”

I got back to the room and some people I don’t know dropped off some delicious mexican food for dinner (with guacamole!). God says, “Megan, you are not alone.”

I got a phone call from the front desk saying I have a present. It’s some delicious dessert someone from my church called and had delivered to me with a sweet note. God says, “Megan, you are not alone.”

God hears me.

So I go to bed tonight renewed by Him. He is all I need. And I am definitely NOT feeling alone.

He will answer. HE ALWAYS DOES!

Bennett update: He is doing amazing! God has gone before us and heard your prayers for our little man. He had a rough day on Saturday with nausea and his blood counts had dropped, but then he was a new kid on Sunday. Smiles and laughter! We had a clinic appointment today and they told us all of his blood counts are already increasing! I’m praising The Lord that the side effects have been minimal so far and my baby is a fighter. Now we just hang tight, enjoy the good days and prepare for another round of chemo on January 29. In a few days we will email some more specific prayers requests. But the biggest one right now is to get out of isolation!!

26 Comments

  1. Megan, what a powerful post, that song was so moving, prayers continue here unceasingly for precious Bennett, the Lord has you all in His arms.

  2. Prayers for you and all your family. God has you covered.He is with you. The best part of all is that you know it. Love in Christ for you!

  3. Sweet Dreams
    God Bless You
    I Love You
    Good Night….as we say each night in our home, I share with you on this night! What a blessing you and your family have been and continue to be, in my family’s life.
    Hebrews 13:5

  4. Praying for many sweet days on this journey! So thankful for the word this morning…you are not alone…countless prayers are being breathed on y’all’s behalf, moment by moment! Asking God for His Presence to settle all about you and Bennett…that His favor will be all over y’all!!! He is our Jehovah Rapha, our Healer! Asking Him to pour health and healing over your precious baby boy! We love y’all!

  5. We look forward to having you join our MOMentum Bible Study that begins today, Megan, whether in spirit or via Skype. Know that you are a part of the “sisters” who will journey over the next 6 weeks with Ruth, the woman “whose name chimes a thousand notes of redemption for every woman who has ever been devastated by loss, struggled as a stranger, lived with the bitter, longed to be loved, fought for crumbs, or wept along the journey.” As Ruth is described as “an emblem of grace…because of the One under whose wings she had come to trust,” so, too, are you, Sweet Megan, a precious and powerful testimony to the 20 women who will gather this day at HomePointe. Welcome. We will rejoice and “weep forward” with you, my friend.

  6. It’s easy how we can forget that He is the Lord of everything….praise that you get that!! He’s got you girl!
    Love and Prayers!

  7. Megan,

    With each post I see more clearly why God has chosen your little family to walk this out. HE is using yours and Ben’s words to minister to others through your pain. So proud of y’all.

  8. January 29th is my son’s 5th birthday so I will pray for Bennett’s 5th birthday and for the chemo to do it’s job on that day!

  9. Megan,

    We are praying as a family everyday for you and Bennett. We love you and appreciate your amazing attitude of praise and worship and gratefulness during a journey I can’t comprehend the difficulty of. We love you, cousin! ~Faith, Ken, Deion, Destiny, and Donovan Gladden

  10. How awesome to hear your heart sing in the mists of great loneliness & trial. Looking only to The Lord places you, Ben & your children in the place of abundant love & care, mercy & grace, healing & peace from Our Heavenly Father. You & Ben have chosen wisely in letting God provide for you. Love & Hugs

  11. I remember the first time that I discovered the “seek ye first…” principle applied not only to our physical needs, but also to our spiritual and emotiional needs. You could have sought comfort from friends and family, but how much sweeter when it comes from The Lord. He knows exactly what you need! I pray often for your strength and comfort.

  12. You and Ben and precious Bennett are my inspiration for my own journey through chemo. I am so glad you know that you are not alone. As I have discovered also, we have a God who is near, and we are surrounded by loving friends and family. We are blessed even in the midst of our deepest moments.

  13. Thank you for posting often, as the song says “you are always on my mind “.
    When I call MeMama , almost the first thing she will ask is “what have you heard from the baby?” Referring to Bennett of course.
    Also, any time I pick up my phone in his presence, Carter asks me the same question.
    So, you can’t post often enough to satisfy our longing to know how our prayers should be focused at this moment.
    We stand with you and love you much.
    Aunt Ann

  14. My friend- don’t ever feel like you are “bombarding” anyone with your posts. I think I speak for everyone who reads your blog that it is an absolute privilege that you have invited all of us to be on this journey with you. I look forward to your posts as it gives me insight as to your specific prayer needs for that moment. You and Ben have been so transparent throughout the process. That is a gift. We love you guys and want nothing more than to walk this road with you. I pray God’s peace will continue to surround you. Blessings!

  15. Megan, it is so incredible that you continue to Bless and Uplift others as you walk this road. And yes, you are not alone, one of my fav names for our Lord is Jehovah-Shammah, the Lord IS here. He IS with you and praise the Lord that so many are being His “hands and feet” and allowing Him to minister to you. Continuing to PRAY, lifting up you, Ben, Bennett, Davis and Reid.

  16. Megan, at a time when you need blessings, you are blessing to us. I was so blessed by listening to this song that I’ve never heard before, and yes! God is near and we are never alone. Isaiah 41:10 He is all that we need because His grace is sufficient. So good to hear you are experiencing the sweet part of this challenging situation which is to walk closely to Him and to know that no matter what He is there working all things together for the good of those who love Him. God is and will continue to see you and your beautiful family through this. He is faithful!

  17. What amazing words of comfort you have received and shared with us. I am praying daily that God gives you strength to endure and that Bennett continues to improve.

  18. Megan, it was great for us to see and hug Ben today when he stopped by bible study but, I know he is hurting being away from you and Bennett. I will pray for him to get his work done here soon, have a great time with the children and get back to you quickly. God is good-God is with you-will keep the prayers coming. G

  19. Megan, I have to agree with Kristi- Don’t think that you are ever bombarding! I too look forward to your posts. Know I am thinking and praying for all of you!

    k

  20. I agree that you can’t possibly bombard us. To know your needs, whether they are physical or spiritual, gives us an opportunity to serve, to uplift and to help in a situation where there just really isn’t much we can do. It also gives me a way to uplift another family I know going through the same thing with their son, his diagnosis just came last week and today was his first day of chemo. He has ALL but it has a ” glitch” in it that makes it more difficult to treat… kind of like Bennet’s. Your two families have been so heavily on my mind and heart… I’m in prayer for you all.

  21. Oh Megan !! What a beautiful song!!
    I just love your faith and generosity to share such an awesome moment with God! You are a blessing more than you know! You are a sweet momma, Bennett is blessed to have you fighting by his side!! I am so proud to say I learn from you everyday! Just when I feel lonely God says I’m not finished blessing you yet! He never leaves my side. Thanks for sharing you joys, hope, pain and love! Your an amazing woman! Love you! Hugs!!!!!

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