a new journey ahead

Merry Christmas! I truly hope all of you have had a wonderful day celebrating the birth of Jesus. And He is something to celebrate! We had a great morning. The kids ended up with a TON of gifts because my dad and stepmom were here to add to the pile. And yes, I only used boxes this year so the kids were thrilled with lots of paper ripping. Although I failed to think through how much trash that would create:)

But overall, we definitely made Christmas count this year. The kids raised $32 dollars in the Giving Jar which provided chickens to two families and milk for one child. They loved getting to pick that out (which by the way is very challenging when your child is 5 and still doesn’t add very well!). And the Advent Calendar was a huge success with building up ingredients for a mystery snack and the older child was very in tune with the scriptures we read. But I called it with my daughter…she was more excited just to take the tag out of the calendar on her nights. Unfortunately, for reasons I will get to in a minute, we didn’t actually get to make our special snack of ChexMix (I think my hubby is most disappointed with that because he was looking forward to eating it). But thankfully the kids were so excited about opening gifts, they forgot anyway. Thank you, Lord!

It truly was a sweet season of sharing truth with my children and seeing their faces light up when they saw that Santa ate their cookies. But more than anything, for my husband and I, this season will always be defined as love for us.

Many of you know that just a few days ago, doctors discovered a large tumor on our little Baby Bennett’s liver. Because of the size and advancement of it, they are very confident it is cancerous. Of course this is devastating to us, but the Lord continues to show His hand in this. In one morning, we were able to get Bennett accepted into St. Jude Hospital in Memphis. So we are headed there tomorrow. And let me tell you, I am READY to go. My sweet boy is struggling as the days go on.

So because of all of this, the Just 30 Days blog will be completely changing for now. It will become a family blog where Ben and I will both post our journey…the ups and downs and the answered prayers! So be looking for a facelift in the next few days. We have had an outpouring of love from family and friends and we wanted a way to communicate what we were experiencing, as well as our needs.

As hard as all of this is, I am constantly reminded (through many of you) that I am not alone! There are many praying my baby’s name and my God carries me in this. He comforts the brokenhearted. And even though that’s what we feel, we have so much hope because of that little baby born many years ago today. Thank you Jesus!

Isaiah 43:1-5

But now, this is what the Lord says—
he who created you, Jacob,
he who formed you, Israel:
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the Lord your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I give Egypt for your ransom,
Cush and Seba in your stead.
Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
and because I love you,
I will give people in exchange for you,
nations in exchange for your life.
Do not be afraid, for I am with you;
I will bring your children from the east
and gather you from the west.